The Journey Continues: Wayward Wife & LRT (4)

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Thanks gang! I appreciate the genuine concern and interest in my sitch! The 2x4s are much needed. That's what this place is all about.

I certainly feel like I've regressed in the detachment category. I'm not sure what set this off but it could've been my vacation. Or maybe the vacation exposed the false detachment. Either way, I need to wake up each day and committ to a healthy mind state. If I think of my actions as relating to soliciting responses from STBX, I need to stop and correct myself.

All the detailed questions may also coincide with how much I personally find comfort in routine. Subconsciously, I assume that if I just get a strategy for every preconcievable situation, I won't have to think, I can just react like instinct. However, I think this goes to confirm the points Starsky, T0, Rip, and others have been making all along. If I truly have the proper mindset, my instinct will already be the correct response.

Needless to say, thanks to all for the constructive criticism. I obviously need the guidance right now.