It's been two weeks...

[DifRent]

Thanks everyone... got out of bed but started working in the bedroom. She knocked on the door, since she clearly needed to get in here to get clothes, etc. She made the bed, then came over, took my hand, and asked what she could do to make all this easier for me, so we can be friends and have things be normal. Maybe I should not have engaged her, probably shouldn't have, but I did say there is nothing she can to to support me when it's her actions that are wounding me. We can't get back to normal, because this isn't normal. She seems to think that simply because she says our relationship is over, she's got a free pass now. "I've done the right thing by being open and honest, and by saying we're done before going on dates with her."

This is the problem with not having the legal paper, I guess...

So then she asks if I plan on going to a certain regular social we attend tonight. I said yes, and she said, "You know, maybe we ought to start telling people what's going on. I don't want people to see me with Catherine and think I'm cheating on you."

!!!!!!!

I said, "Why not? You are. This commitment you made matters. If people think you're cheating, then they're right. You just want all of this to be easy for you. Not how it works."

All through this conversation, she was making the bed she no longer sleeps in...

Got some things off my chest, but I'm not sure this was a good strategy. I'm actually going to talk to one of Michele's coaches today. But... not feeling hopeful. I know... take care of me.