Last night swam a full mile, was the longest I've swam by a long distance since high school really. Very proud of that. Feels good still this AM.
What doesn't feel good is how much I feel like crap about having to pretend that I am not suspicious of wife. We went out for ice cream after S10,music program. 1/2 way through she got phone call....and left restaurant. Came back few minutes later and nothing. I started to get angry about it.
By the time we got home I was pi$$ed and she knee something was up. She asked of anything was wrong. I told her I was alright. I hated doing it it made me feel weak telling her nothing was wrong. I went swimming and reset myself.
The rest of the evening was uneventful...went to bed almost right when I got home. pMA in spite of this is hard. I don't want grumpy bear to come back.
