I've been keeping a positivity journal the past few days (HW from DB coach). It seems to help as I don't focus solely on the negative. Tonight, after focusing on his phone activity too much as usual, I took time to see what positive interactions I might add to my journal. Nothing noteworthy today, but if I'm going to continue this way I might as well look for the positives.

A little over a month before I go on vacation and get some much needed time away from H. Not to mention I really love going "home."

I really need to work on overcoming my poor body image...that is not going to be easy since I've been living with it for 45 years. There is a lot more to this but again, it's time for bed.

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since