I am having a great, great start to the week after an even better weekend. The air in my house feels different. Lighter. I met some great people over the weekend, laughed a lot. I feel happy. Me from years ago is returning a little stronger each day.
STBX used to complain that I was an unhappy person and he couldn't make he happy (like that was his job?!). It almost makes me laugh now, when I think about where some of these lines in my face came from - being confused at his adoration of me/his online behavior...the crazy hurtful irrational things he'd say in most conflicts, well, I could go on.
I am trying not to fight my thoughts, just watching them pass by like cars in traffic (thank you Headspace). And I feel assured he is probably finding himself miserable and lonely as he was before I met him. I know that's a jackal thought. But I don't care, it makes me happy. Just not at the point to wish someone who threw me away under a lot of pretense and manipulation much good will.
Got some goals for this week, life and work needs to step up to match the healing GAL stuff.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
