Anxiously waiting for it to fall apart

[dejavu2]

Thanks B, lots to think about in your note. I am sorry that your xH did not want to do his work when you were together. I have no clue whether my H will "rise to occasion" or not either.

Yes, I have gone thru other periods of emotional enlightenment - they are painful times, but there is a peace at the end of the process. I just keep hoping that I have packed that box away for the last time, only to have to dig thru it again years later.

I had a great conversation with eldest D today about what is going on. She has been angry about H. I told her that the greatest personal growth seems to be a result of emotional challenges. We don't tend to grow during the good times. Don't regret you had the challenge, look to learn your lesson and enjoy the next chapter. This process will happen many times life, thankfully there are many more good years than bad.

Over the past 5 years I have slowly put on weight until my wedding ring won't come off - there is a slight irony in this. I am working on myself both inside and out. I am hoping soon that I can choose whether the ring stays on or comes off for good.