No matter how hard I try I just can't let go. My whole family is telling me to move on, find somebody else. Most of my friends say the same thing. I'm afraid that if I let go, I will give up. I look at my kids and just can't seem to find the will to move on entirely. It's the wrong reason though, to think I should not give up because of the kids.
I have to move, can't afford this place on my own. It's scary do that again, for the first time in 10 years. I have not the confidence that I can manage everything on my own. That's part of my problem. I relied way to much on her and believed I was worthless. I never took enough on around the house, and just let her do it all. I guess this will be a 180 for me. Doing this all over again on my own. Let's hope I can manage.
