As much as it feels and seem to be very final, it is amazing that it is not there yet, and you are still on the front line.
Is there any way you can stop feeling so done and lost? and then think of how to shake things a little bit.
It may not change anything, it may be just a foolish gesture to show up and talk to him in person, but it is something and after 9 months maybe it could be just on move in the chess board.
What you have to lose? I know that by were I am sitting things may seem a little easier, but you are strong and has proven you can handle a lot of tough situations.
Check with you inner self and ask if this would be a fight you want to invest. If so, GAME ON...
Since I wrote a lot, and gave you a big idea, I think this are my $$$ dollars worth. And the second apt is full price, kkkkk.
