I'm so glad Toots pointed me in your direction Twin. I feel like I could've written this myself. I know H is trying, but letting go of what he did is something I just can't seem to do. I totally get things happening today getting attached to the past. I find myself angry & it's usually over something so trivial. H took me to dinner when I visited a couple of weeks ago, he saw a buddy & left me sitting at the table. In a split second I went from being relaxed & enjoying the dinner to angry that 'I bet he didn't do that with her'. It was all I could do to bite my tongue & swallow the blood. I don't want to punish him especially over something I'm only speculating would or wouldn't have happened. Since they only met in person 1weekend & the rest was text/phone, they didn't even have dinner together. But it didn't stop my head from going there. Like I said on my thread earlier today, when I hear him tell me his excuses for it happening, all I want to do is yell I was lonely too you jacka$$! I seriously wish there was some magic button to push so I could let this go. My IC just keeps saying it takes time & is a process & that I have to practice patience & not beat myself up when these flashbacks or emotions happen.
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M: 43 H: 40 M: 18y S17,D13 D12 IC 11/2014 BD 4/16/15 H home 6/25/15 OW2 EA 6/26/15 MC started 7/22/15 Baby stepping....
