FIDO - Changing The Rules - Pt 1

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Wow...I didn't realize how long it had been...time flies when you're having fun

Where to begin?

The good: We're still in the same house. I see signs that we're piecing things back together. We're getting along better, less fighting; she seems to feel better about us most days (still depends on the day) and tells me so. She's trying to live “as if” and seems to be trying to find things over which to connect with me. She's spending more time working on herself; working on regaining her sense of self confidence and self worth. These weren't things she had problems with until the last year.

The bad: She's still intensely unhappy at times...depressed, having a hard time finding hings to be happy about or to look forward to. OM is still too big a presence in our lives. While she speaks of him more dispassionately than she used to, I have caught her going to his FB page....every day. Last week she admitted to me that she was depressed because it was his birthday!!! SMH. My requests, suggestions and demands that she remove him from FB and out of her phone have fallen on deaf ears. She insists, like a petulant teenager, that she needs to process thing her way and that I can't try to control how she processes things. I don't usually care what she does, except that she continues to stir her emotions, and refuses to listen.

So here we are; I'm still continuing to GAL; building my business, learning more about investing, working out. It' just kind of a limbo state right now. We're getting along just fine for the most part, but there's still no resolution.