We are over, now what?

[Tulo]

Just woke up for the second time.. Woke up in the middle of the night after having a nightmare about ex. We were together and at a party. All was fine and we had a great time. Suddenly two women shows up that I've never seen before. He follows them into a room, and it's clear that he knows them. He sits on the floor (?) with one on either side and they start to kiss and make out. He sees me but doesn't care. I ask him to come because I want to talk to him, but he just ignores me.

Woke up with anxiety and hard to fall asleep again. This dream is so over the top and nothing he ever would do to me, but still I react to it.

It's early morning here, run day is here and the sun is shining outside. This weekend, planned for over a year, so much of it was about us. Him supporting me, us staying at luxurious hotel and eat at out favourite restaurant. Now I'll do all this, but with my niece.

No sound from him and know I should have any expectations.
Ok, needed to get this down in writing.. Thank you all for well wishes! I'm going to do my best, have a great day and get my medal!

Think of me.. 😊 First ever half marathon, is soon on the way!