Make Love in the Middle of a Warzone

[NDY]

yeah - the behaviour unto BD - i didn't really "collect" all the behaviour. But it all adds up now.

I really dont know what her intention was telling me that. I know she was hesitant in having another child, but she really did want a sibling for the first. I blissfully believe that the was just trying to hurt me as much as she could.

BD was not 100% over. She left it in a way that she wasn't the one closing the door but hurt me as much as she could hoping I would just say "**** off - thats it - 100% over". but i didn't. i was like Rocky just kept taking it on the chin.

Good practice for now it was. I reckon will serve me well for the rest of my life. I'm superhero impervious to pain now

After months of suspicion on my part and her treating me like sh*t, which got worse every day and me like a withering little wimp standing in the background taking it all thinking not only was I going mad for suspecting her but also blaming myself for her anger I got it right between the eyes.

Then, after weeks of trying to sort it with her (yea, it was before DR and DB) she happily announced that she was sleeping with him. So there was the 100% right there.

Oh, and don't forget it was all my fault. And like a mug I did blame myself.