Make Love in the Middle of a Warzone

[Pyrite]

Things is, do we actually get version 2.0 of our spouses. Do we take them back a better versions of themselves but still no where near version 2.0?

I want my H, the loving, caring person he was before he gave me all this! Does that ever happen.

Is the M better because we work harder never to go back to this pain we have all felt. It is not good, quite introspective and morose these last few days.

IDK Smothy. At BD, before I clicked that OM made this sitch add up, I was arguing that ultimately we would both learn from this, and then carry that forward into our next R." Lets learn this together" I said "and bring it into ours. In 20 years we can look back on this as the period which made our M great".

She insisted D was the only way. She owed nothing to me or the M.

I saw a new IC today. It went OK, but 1st session is basically me re-telling. I forget how vicious she was until I have to recount it to someone else and they visibly cringe at some of the things W said to me, and her behaviour.

I remember it like a horror movie. During the highlights I was panting, couldn't catch my breath. There are a handful of moments in my life that remain distinct. Most have dimmed. There was one moment which I dont think will EVER dim. She made me repeat it, to be sure I understood what she was saying. This was horrible in itself. "W didn't want a 2nd baby with me. She just wanted a sibling for the 1st." I still can't process this. It makes me feel horrible. I feel sick for my little girl as well. I just can't excuse adding this to her script.

She was so sweet. I just can't believe how she turned so bitter and venemous. And if it is the unexaggerated truth, this was years ago. WTF has been going on for years?

Anyway. I am not really down about it as it may appear. Just story telling. Actually had a great day. The kids drove me nuts at bedtime, but you get that sometimes. Oh and d4 had an accident on me, again! We were dancing and she was having too much fun to take a break.