Py- one reason I could never look at my STBX and say "this is unforgivable, we could never come back from here"- I was upset when she walked. I felt we could work it out. Feelings could change. M is precious. Etc. How can I be disappointed with her for walking away because she believed feelings couldn't change, if once she does I get so hurt I start buying into the same thing? Yes, I get boundaries. I get not putting yourself in an abusive R. I get wanted to see signs that a new M would be different, that it wouldn't repeat. And I get not wanting to stunt your own growth clinging to someone else's behavior...but that's not what I'm talking about. What I'm talking about is just letting the future be the future. You get it, I just think this point of view helps. Oh- glad you're doing better!
yep. think this is why i AM feeling better. I think my recent posting around the traps shows this. the future is just that - the future. I am letting go of the idea that I want it to be any certain way. well definitely in terms of things that are out of my control.
i'll have to re-read that first bit but I hope you are not suggesting that I was not upset for the same reason. we'll have to have an "upset competition" if thats the case.
by the end of the day i was good. woke up and stumbled, but back up again. then had a big joint bank account, snooping issue. Details are unimportant but the possible expenditure implies something which makes me cringe. Anyway, throw it out, back up, at least on the way. I am seeing new IC in a few hours. Looking forward to it. How screwed up is my life when ICing is attractive?
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
