I think it's good that you had some feelings of desire. I think it's normal. Good for you for standing for marriage! You didn't act on it and have no intention of it. BTW, isn't the beautiful thing a bonus?

"Considering that she felt her M was doomed, that she'd never be happy, that she was stuck...if some guy came along and started expressing interest, waking up those feelings...I can get why she'd chase the dream."

One thing I read early on is that affairs are based on emotion, not logic...doesn't make it right still but the cheater finds a way to justify.

You will make a great husband someday!

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since