so many emotions and thoughts going through my head right now. Looking back at our marriage, i've come to accept that i have caused my W so much pain and emptiness over the last few years. W would complain that i never wanted to do anything but stay at home and watch tv or just hang out (i was going through a bad depression after the passing of my Mom). She would complain about how i was not there for her emotionally. I had always told her that she wasnt there for me when i was going through the depression, but now i realize what she means by me not being there for her during that time. Before, i would get angry at her saying that i wasnt there for her, but now i realize that I wasnt there for her during that time. I wasnt the man i shouldve been and i really let my W down during those two years. I used to always complain that we never had sex, but after some self reflection, i realized that its all my fault. I didnt do anything romantic or sexual for her. I never put her in the mood. I just expected it without putting in any work. i was such a selfish husband. This forum, DR, and time has allowed me to sort of understand what my WAW is going through. I just hope that i can change myself, my behaviors, my personality, and my life so that i can be a happy, stable person and father. I dont know if my W will ever reconcile, but i hope that i can make the necessary changes to become a better person.
Me-35 W-34 Married 6/2011 T-6 years S-2 BD-3/22/2015
