None of us can believe it Ralphy. I've probably said over a thousand times in the last 5 months, "I just can't believe this happened to me."
Unfortunately it didn't happen "to" me. She did what she was going to do and I'm feeling the consequences, but we all played a role. Follow the advice on here as hard as it is - detach, GAL, 180, and be strong. This is going to suck, but it helps to start believing it happened and start taking action.
You've got a ton of support here. Use it!
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