Last week, the company sent out a mass email. They let go of 5 employees because of financial difficulties. One of the employees is someone I consider a friend. She is a valuable employee and has been with the company for 30 years. She was lucky to receive severance. Another employee, after 36 years, was given no severance. Everyone was given two weeks' notice.
I don't like this company. I don't like how they treat people. I don't like how they've treated me.
Now...I don't know why the Lord is giving me these challenges. I'm looking at the positive...
I've been in a sorta boot camp of chaos for the past 8 months and I'm still standing. I've learned a lot and feel confident I can handle a writing job with a better managed (and nicer) company.
Still. I'm ready for LESS pressure--or at least, less of a feeling of impending doom. I realize it's my action that will alter this situation. I'm looking. Trying hard to push away the thoughts that say, "Heather, this is crazy! How will you be able to afford moving again?! How will you be able to do this?! YOU can't do this! YOU are doomed!"
I'm not doomed. This is where I've learned what I'm made of. I can handle this. I just need to use my creativity and intelligence. Luckily, I have reams of both. :-)
Part of the challenge here is sorting through all the choices. I feel like there are so many directions/opportunities and I don't know which to choose. I also know that whatever I choose, needs to be a permanent place for D12 and I. We need to settle in somewhere.
We've had some good conversations, one yesterday, where she told me she doesn't like how stressed I've been in this position. She isn't thrilled with the harsh winters here.
Trying to listen to God as opposed to controlling the outcome.
I'm reaching out for support...In the last month, I've had two counseling sessions and met with a pastor who happens to be friends with Dick Bolles who wrote What Color is Your Parachute. He gave me lots of good stuff to think about. Oddly enough, we met the day before I received the email. Also, the counselor's husband worked for this company for 30 years. She told me she always felt it was mismanaged and pulled her hair out at times with their decisions and so forth. It was validating.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
