This is tougher than I imagined..

[Cherry]

Eirinn, thanks for swinging buy.. In a sense no he hasn't really admitted his part- he just makes out that we hadn't made time for one another the way that we used to. Throughout this process, I've noticed although he likes to come across as a strong man- he is incredibly needy in the sense he needs a lot of attention- he likes to feel useful- desired listened to. He is willing to talk to me, but it's just he sees it as a mistake and wants to forget it ever happened- but as I tell him over and over, he completely broke my trust. He lost his virginity to me- so he can no longer say he's only slept with me, which is a big deal to me.

Painter- thanks for stopping by. Sorry to hear you are in a similar place. Intimacy hasn't been too much of an issue for us neither. That is really interesting about the psychology- I have read into a few things like this. He has said previously that if I wanted to go to MC he would.. I guess my issue is he just wants to act as though nothing has happened and I want to avoid these things happening again. Also I would say I am a jealous person- obviously I've had to learn to deal with this whilst he was in his fog- but now I find it difficult and feel like he should be doing all he can to redeem himself- but he isn't