7 weeks in feels like a lifetime.

[Lynn80]

I screwed up. 😓

I have seen daily steps in the right direction. Actions showing kindness and conscious choice to do what is right for the family.

The EA still texts and he refuses to give her up stating she makes him happy and it isn't about her. He is suppose to take our son to a work baseball game tomorrow and I asked for reassurance she wouldn't be there.

It spiraled into a sad conversation around how he is just unwilling to try. Stating he has tried in the past and that is why he moved on. I knew he was not ready to commit and wasn't even going to check for another few weeks. He just buckled down to verify his belief that he will never love me again.

It just boggles my mind as we had therapy yesterday on our coparenting. We go every week under the agreement to work together for our son. We managed to right our parenting issues in 2 weeks and even the counselor asked "what does that say about a relationship that can work together and correct an imbalance admist all this crisis?" He cautioned us to think about that before throwing it all away.

I am happy I spoke up about my insecurities around the game because we have to work on clear expectations and honesty. I am bummed I didn't just shut it down from there.