"So I see this as speaking out of both sides of your mouth. You have had connections, movies, lunch, laughter, shared stories, and the present the other day. But you are also right, no physical connection. So guys need sex to feel close. Girls need intimacy to want to have sex. It is a catch 22. Perhaps look at how you are enabling this behavior and how to change the dynamic."
Spot on Mahhhty, fear is definitely holding me back...fear of what rejection? I'm already being rejected.
I have already decided that I'm not going to confront him until after we get back from up North. My sister suggested (since I've waited this long) to wait until after his surgery. The problem with that is I have no idea how long that is going to take. There doesn't seem to be any hurry on the other side for him to "get fixed" and if it takes another year I'm not sure I'm willing to continue like this that much longer.
I definitely have some questions for my coach, hopefully I will have some alone time tomorrow to organize my thoughts to get the most out of this session.
On a different note, I talked to someone today about my teaching certification and got started applying for some positions for next year. There are 2 I'm interested in but I need a Microsoft Certification....but it is not specific as to which one, MCP? Even the person I talked to wasn't sure...
I also downloaded a new audio book to learn to speak Spanish! I took French in HS and college but when you don't use it, you lose it.
I'm also thinking about getting a personal trainer for a month or so, to help get me motivated and more consistent, and I need to incorporate some strength training. I'll have to check out the cost before making any decisions.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
