Touch and Go?

[Sis]

I've been reading and learning so much from this site. Things are much clearer when you read real stories and I so appreciate everyone's honesty and sharing. I am at the 11th month mark since BD but believe he's been in crisis for much longer. Hence my confusion on reconnection and touch and go. It seems too soon but thinking back over the last 2 1/2 years, I'm sure it started during the summer of 2012.
So because we live 800 miles apart it's been difficult to gauge progress but also makes it easier for me to focus on myself. We have spent two weekends together in the last 5 weeks and have really enjoyed each other's company. His words, my thoughts. I pulled back on contact after our last time together and it worked! He contacted me. I do think that his relationship with OW has just recently ended although he seemed to be pulling away from her in January when he dropped the divorce suit. He's been playing his cards slow and steady. And I have maintained kindness, love and respect. I took my husband for granted and accept my role in all this. Although I also believe he's been melting down for most of our marriage due to a very dysfunctional childhood. He seems to have made peace with his dictator father who was a controlling doctor. My MIL stood by her man and was extremely critical to her children, especially my H who was the oldest son. He's been in therapy throughtout this last year and I truly believe she's helped him emmensely. I'm nervous and a bit anxious to see what comes next and pray for patience daily. He'll be home again in 3 weeks for a cousin's wedding that I've yet to be invited to. So I'd be lying if I said things like that don't sting, I just wonder what he'll tell people when they ask where I am? Hopefully not that we're getting a divorce. This is one crazy wild ride.

Sis