You are right in your words. I have been working through the detachment checklist that was posted on this site. It's amazing how many little things just go away, when you are locked on only one thing. I'm seeing things that I know are wrong from both sides. I am a serious codependent personality, all I want to do is fix things. I know they came from how I grew up, but it's still choices. I have the choice to keep beating my head against the wall, or I can try something new.
I did try some new stuff the first time she left, but as soon as she was back it was back to the old me. I wanted to fix her, help her out of her depression. I just have to see that's not possible, and never will be.
I have went 47 days today without anything to do with porn or masturbation, off subject, but I think if I can accomplish something, it's going to help with the rest. The only struggle I have with it is my sex drive going through the roof sometimes. It will get better, I just have to keep thinking positive. Thanks for the encouragement PigPen!!
