I have read your entire sitch ... yup .. all of it. It really has helped me with some areas I was stuck on for a bit.
I think that past stuff is the brutal things that we do not think we would have such a hard time dealing with it while we were in the thick of things .. its like .. ok Objective one, survive and outlast this crisis ... live happily ever after. Its just not that easy.
I do not have any advice nor wise words like the fine people above have already said ... as I am behind you as far as time line .. but I did want to reach out and share that your story here has helped me more than you could possibly imagine, and like all the things you have handled .. I have no doubt this to you will overcome and be better for it.
