Running out of time

[V2pt0]

I have thought about giving up as well, but as Zues said, going through D and the after affects will be just as hard as fighting for M, if not harder. Just try and spend 5 minutes a day with focusing of positive thoughts. Helps me stay focused and hopeful.

One of the reasons I think my M is where it is because lack of graditude. Both my H and I are guilty of this. Years ago, instead of focusing on what we had going for us in M and in our lives, we opted to focus on what was wrong. That lead to anger and resentment, which just kept building up each year. Hard to live from a place of love and forgiveness when that is the case. Thinking back to when my H was in school, there was so much to be thankful for, but instead I focused on things that were trivial in grand scheme of things. If only we could turn back time, but the silver lining is that in hindsight lessons have been learned. At least for me. My H, not so much since he is running from his issues. Feel sorry for him in that regard. Hoping he will come to senses at some point, but if not, at least I have used situation for my personal growth.