I'm just blown away by the kind comments. Thank you all for your support and goodwill as we stumble along the path.
Pigpen, you're right on. I'm getting to a point where I'm less and less anxious about who I am and what I want. It's not so exotic that I'm ashamed of it at this point, and really it's not cast in stone either. I'm more interested in communication and exploration that iron clad expectation. And if I'm with a partner that meets my basic needs I don't think I'll have any problems trying to twist things around to compensate.
But even if my needs aren't being met I will walk a different path. Pyrite- my DB coach talked to me today and we were talking about my ability to navigate my next R. She said you're not ready for a new relationship when you're ready to trust someone else- you're ready when you trust YOURSELF. When you trust yourself to be able to respond in ways you're proud of, to be the person you want to be. Well, I'm not ready to date because I'm married...but I DO trust myself.
I won't reply to all individually, but again, Sunny, Fogg, Pigpen, Ripken...it's an honor and a privilege.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15