Today was better emotionally minus a self inflicted setback. I sorted through our boxes of keepsakes (aka notes, cards, etc) and that was tough. I should have not read any of it, just separated them out into two piles, but i couldn't help myself. It's tough to read stuff as recently as 4-5 month ago with no indication of the storm brewing.
I've decided that I'm not going to bring up the fact that W's box of this stuff is in the closet she already cleared out - I'm sure she saw it and either wants to leave it all behind, or was simply not ready to face that part. Perhaps the worst of this was the sad reminder of how I used to clearly fill her love tank back in the day with cards, notes, and affirmation, yet for reasons not yet clear to me let that slide as life moved forward.
I read it somewhere on this forum recently (post was probably waay old though) that someone wished they'd gotten 5LL as a wedding gift and not wine glasses. That hit home with me, and even though I don't know how many more weddings I'll be attending in the future, you can bet that's going to be my gift.
Began the process today to line up an IC. Pending the call back to schedule my first appointment on that front.
Also - heeded Zues's advice and had my first DB coaching today. I will admit I had hoped for more concrete "homework" but keep reminding myself that one, it was the first talk and a lot of time was spend with background, and two, I was told that what I've been doing so far is ahead of the typical curve, right on path as is seems to be inciting positivity, and that we would determine a path change, if needed, after she moves out. So, I guess an overall good first session even if I've not walked away with something "new" to try.
Me:36 W:30 M:2.75 T:7 BD: 4/2015 ILYBNILWY: 5/2015 W Moved Out: 5/2015 W filed for D: 7/2015
