I am still going through a lot of emotions and really I can't understand how all the old habits of saying ILU, darling, honey just disappears overnight.
I too am in the process of NC - text and email only. Its hard but hang in there.
Have you let go of hope? I try to make myself stop hoping but I can feel that deep down inside I still hope for a miracle..
I think hope for the R is important and necessary. You need to keep your ultimate goal as this. But getting the relationship back can't be the goal you're focusing on NOW. As it says in DR, you need to set short term goals that will allow you to reach this long term goal. If you lose hope or give up, then the final goal shifts from getting your R back to making the pain go away or some other thing.
This road is not quick. And it's not easy. And it's not painful. But I believe that trusting the system is the only way to reach that ultimate goal. In order to hit that final target though, you have to keep it in your sights somehow.
