It will be a full year for us in June since all hell broke loose. My H is back, too, and saying ILY. I have good days and bad days, but have learned that it is best to focus on my goal of staying married and eventually being happily married again. I constantly ask myself now....will this get you closer to your goals? Some days I want to scream...but I stay quiet and continue to db.
It's taken a lot of work on my part. That even aggravates me some days...he seems to be getting the better end of the stick...a new improved wife....for the same old H minus possible OW. Never got real hard proof. But I really think there was one or maybe two. May have been an EA and not a PA, but still....
I've been sober now again, for 40 some odd days and been hospitalized at one point for a near nervous break down. Found matches (old) in H's truck from a strip club. It has caused much insecurity on my part. Told him I want a boob job...but I really don't. Just wanted to see his reaction..he ignored me.
Our sex life has improved...but he is still pretty selfish at times.
I ask you, when does all the giving stop? I answer...we're women, we'll never get to quit being the givers. LOL You see I know the answers to my own questions, but just don't like the answers.
Here's the secret of life according to my wise Mom...Get some really good girlfriends.
Hang in there and great job on watching that movie Dinner with Friends, that's a tough one.
