Part 20 - reassembly instructional

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Morning all

And its a big old grey wet pile of Meh! here today.

Weather is absolutely vile, driving rain, grey to pitch black skies, driving wind generally...urghhh.

Woke at 5:45 to the doorbell and then house alarms in the street. After a few seconds of being discombobulated and looking out of the window and seeing no one at the front door it dawned on me, power had gone out in the street.

I went and did some server related precautions and then checked on my phone and yes sure enough there was a reported outage. Had to decide whether to get ready to head into the office or not but no power means no water pump, no water pump and no header tank means no shower and estimated fix time was 9 so waited it out. By 8:45 everything was back so fixed the trips and brought all my kit back online.

Still resolving some bits but mostly all back now and got showered/shaved etc this morning.

Soooo. Of the sitch, rather meh too really. Nothing earth shatteringly bad but definitely a "pull back" time at the moment. W messaged me a little yesterday afternoon, again raising houses so just stayed enthusiastic, talking about s and a game console he wants, we got into a discussion on what we could do, w suggested we wont always need two of the console we have now so can trade one in along with other bits. Agreed and suggested I will be having a second declutter on tech I have boxed up so can probably find some other bits that can go.

We then chatted about dinner etc / nothing deep or stressful, towards the end of the evening w was telling me s's behaviour has improved a lot over the past few days and we discussed if that was us having a co-ordinated approach and keeping it going. Seems both of us were shattered and w wasnt feeling well as well so both of us had - independently - headed for bed early.

This morning (when I got online...grr) noticed she'd posted on her timeline at 2am so messaged to say good morning, say I hope she'd had a good night and remind her ifshe can get a link for an art project s did thats online. About 2 hours later she ssingle line messaged to say they were off to his class in a mo, Ive messaged about a few bits that I needed to tell her since (connected to our shared education link that had gone down due to power - now fixed and some resources) and she's read but not replied.

I'm therefore assuming she's either under the weather or busy (or just feeling like its a bit too much right now) so I'm backing off calmly and leaving her to get on. Different that I am actively not sending panicy emails, messages or texts asking whats wrong has she changed her mind (much as mr fixit is on his megaphone in there) calmness abides generally but the weather and silence is a bit much today.

Addressing that via music while I work (assuming the power holds up grrrr again) and this evening I am going swimming for me.

It occurred to me checking my diary for work this morning, that in the past two weeks W has only had s overnight "by herself" 5 nights with the rest being here or with me being over there at the same time.

If s wants to spend time with me that's hunky dorey by me but it occurs what a huge change that is - not directly related to the sitch (beyond trust and the major issue that drove her to go in July) - but worth journalling if nothing else.

Anyway on with work, think I'll crank the music up.