The "talk" ended with him not wanting to be in R with me anymore. We have said we are going to be "friends".. Suddenly last week he started to like my stuff on FB, and called on Sunday saying he couldn't come with me when I run my half marathon this upcoming Saturday, but wanted me to send my link to my GPS so he could follow me around the track anyway. Sounded so sweet and had several suggestions on how to achieve this. Felt really good when we hung up.
So today I went on FB and saw that he removed our R status and it sent me to a dark place. What for? Nothing has changed, but it feels different. And I can't see why he would go through that song and dance about being sorry for missing my race, and so on, when it still feels like he couldn't care less.
BTW- I'm ready if any of you want to hit me with a 2x4!
So plan from now on I guess, is NC! NC! NC! I said when he called that I would contact him when I found out how he can get texts for following me in the race and so on, but I think the best thing is just to keep silent..? Do you all agree?
I have my run coming up, and really no time for sitting with shaky legs and a pit in my stomach! I need to feel strong.. But this changing status thing is such a silly thing to be upset over, and still I am..
Well, well, call this venting, being pathetic or what ever. A new tread is on its way.. So appreciate all your feedback on previous treads. Your making it easier to be in this mess..
Hugs!
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
