Today the kids and I overslept and I woke up in a hurry, opened my bedroom door, well, I am in my underwear and a tiny blouse on the top and the first person I see outside the door is H. He came to pick up the boys and since we did not answer our phones he just came in and was upstairs to wake us up.
I ran back to my room and H said he was sorry and left.
Wow, talking about privacy and boundaries, this is all so crazy.
Later today my L called me and said that we need to close on the house final price. I did text H with some quotes of the stuff that need to be fixed around the house. H did not answer me back, will see if he will answer today.
I did write something I already regret. After talking about the quotes I wrote: "Sorry to bother with this but it is something I need to resolve, once it is done I won't bother you ever again."
You know why I did this? because his betrayal hurts me a lot yet, because I want to free him from me but want to make a point.
I know I need to let it all go, and that is the way I will feel better, but I act as a immature girl. And he knows I am still hurting and if I am hurting is because I still love him. I am such an idiot.
Well, another lesson about DBing. Another lesson to learn. I need to stop being passive aggressive. I believe in forgiveness but I still did not forgave H yet.
Lets see what happens tomorrow with this house price. Slowly but surely time is going by and soon we will be signing our Divorce papers and it will all be done.
