My opinion- you DON'T have to think about it again and again. Just detach. Don't worry about it.
I dont think you can detach while still hanging onto this. One way or the other. But could remind myself more often. Especially about one way or another.
I can't helpmeet feel this would all be so much easier without little kids in the middle . It makes it hard to detach, not hope. It makes physically impossible to go NC for more than 3 days at a time.
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015