Advice Welcome, separating and W moving out soon..

[jedi]

Thanks for the read. You are (as you have been) pushing me to stop thinking I can control this or know where this is headed and to actually start really working on it with some help. I most certainly do not want to look back on this and conclude that by the time I really engaged "it was just too late by then."

For the record, asking for help is hard for me (likely not a surprise). I had my first post drafted for almost 3 days before I finally submitted it. Not an excuse or any cop out with that statement, more that I guess I just needed someone to help me truly see this is one thing I cannot attempt to fix alone, and that alone is hard for me to even admit.

Our ongoing discussion has been good for me in this regard, and for helping me on this road to clarity I thank you.