"I do have question about my H's repeated comments and concerns about my level of trust in him since finding out their was A. I think he has mentioned some facet of this 4-5 times. Any thoughts on why he is very focused on this, especially if he has been so adamant our marriage is horrible and not sure he wants to stay? Is this most likely about concerns for hiding an on going A? Or is there a possibility he actual does have concerns I might not get over the A and trust him again?"
We don't know and if we did he'd feel differently by the time we responded. He might be testing the road home, but whether he feels it is paved could work either way (he has to feel he can return, but has to feel he could lose you, etc, etc, etc...). So let him wonder what's going on in his head. You don't need to.
"Anyway, now more importantly about ME..."
This cheered me up. Good job recognizing what's important. You're learning. And your GAL activities are great!
"Having a down day after a fairly good weekend."
Hang in and keep posting. It would only be pathetic if you were so casual about M that you became raging angry and ejected him from your life turning him into a monster. Loving someone deeply and appreciating how valuable that is? NOT pathetic. But do feel better soon!
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
