fogged over. she was a soft target and easy maintenance (as in maintaining the lie). she doesn't think and doesn't want to think two steps ahead, even one. i'm over it. IF she came knockin' I would consider it. I can only see me really taking it on for the sake of my family.
Zeus posted about the process his DB coach quoted him. 1. BD, M over 2. Friends 3. ..........
OK every sitch maybe different. But I can't even see friends. Sure I can let go of the anger and forgive her (one day), but I can't see me actively wanting to be friends with this person. The foremost quality that I was attracted to 12 years ago was her pure, beautiful, heart. Well now it is in my face that she would not only hurt a fly, but destroy her family, tear me down etc. In terms of friends, I have friends with whom I can have much more stimulating conversation, they dont lie to me, stab me in the back.
So looks like I am gonna be one of those guys. I hope when we settle the property I can settle into this role and build towards a better future. One day at a time. Focus and appreciate the now. Dont waste time dwelling on the past and predicting the future. Especially HER future. This is what I should write on a rubber band and snap on my neck everytime I stray.
thanks guys
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
