Having a down day after a fairly good weekend. I think it might be partially due to the weather since it is a drizzly and dreary day. Also, it is hard because the weekends are when H and I have most interaction and conversation. It is like I get my fix and then go through withdrawals. Pathetic, but I miss our companionship. This weekend I had more of that then in a long time. Would be nice to get a text or two through out the work week to just say hello to show he is thinking about me. Clearly he is not. I know, I am being greedy.
Also, I realize that I am obsessing over A. Have so many questions that I cannot ask and that have to be put on back burner. I need to just stop since I have no control over it anyway. Hopefully, if it is still going on, it will die a fast death. I do feel my H is making attempt to rest abolish friendship, but I do question his motives.. I have to me positive about this since I know many on here have no contact.
I do have question about my H's repeated comments and concerns about my level of trust in him since finding out their was A. I think he has mentioned some facet of this 4-5 times. Any thoughts on why he is very focused on this, especially if he has been so adamant our marriage is horrible and not sure he wants to stay? Is this most likely about concerns for hiding an on going A? Or is there a possibility he actual does have concerns I might not get over the A and trust him again?
Anyway, now more importantly about ME... Anyway, tonight I am going to focus on positive affirmations and continue reading on anger mgmt. Gal plans for week...dinner with friend on Wednesday, bootcamp each morning, and walk with dog each evening.
I will be gone Mon-Thurs with major work conference. Looking forward to distraction. Then off to Dublin, Ireland next Friday for work. Yeah!
Last edited by BW05; 05/18/1511:00 PM.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
