The Colonel story ... yeah, I have no desire to make W suffer through that, I truly don't, I have even shared with W that I do not want to be the type to hold this over her head after she told me she will have to live with this the rest of her life.
That being said there is this theme lately, like the blowup from Saturday, she does not seem to want to acknowledge it happened ... like the A, a "I'm sorry , I apologized now its up to you to let it go and get over it, all the while I am holding on to the fact you promised me a white picket fence." This is our current hurdle it seems, I want to forgive I really do ... but I think that will take a great deal of work on my end and some compassion from her ... I feel like its the old Cold War ... neither side really wants to dump the Nuke arsenal .... the difference is that I am the one who has realized firing even one Nuke is just not worth it.
My concern are the triggers, these things I need time with. I hope she will get that .... if we watch a movie where the W runs off and sleeps with a Co-Worker ... well yeah things are going to get uncomfortable real quick, I want to forgive, even more I want to be able to handle trigger situations better
