What just happened? Kramer's journey continues

[Kramer]

Well, as predicted by sandi, the high from my recent contact with STBX has worn off, and I find myself sliding a bit further into depression and melancholy. Prior to our recent talk last week, I had done a decent job of GAL, going dark, and was making strides on detachment. I tried not to read into things, and kept our conversation light, upbeat, and positive and did not mention specifics regarding relationship. As I mentioned earlier, she expressed sorrow for what she did, and was certainly sad. However, she did not express remorse or mention anything about trying to repair our relationship. I realize that what happened was her feeling sad and guilty, and needing a shoulder to cry on. Nothing more than that.

Since that interaction last week, there have been a few texts (superficial) from her. I have not responded to them right away and she has mentioned (more than once) that I need to be better and more timely with my texts. When I do respond, I am pleasant and light hearted, and usually close by telling her to have a good day. Her last text was at 10 pm last night telling me that she worked in Psych all day, and one of her patients threatened her with a knife. She obviously was not hurt, and she never told me about it when it happened earlier in the day, so I simply acknowledged that it must have been scary for her. I did also mention that she could have called and I would have responded, but that was probably not a good thing to do.

Here's my dilemma. We all like to think that our sitches are unique, although they probably are not. In my case, the woman I have known for 20 years is one that will never admit fault or make the first move when she is wrong. She is headstrong and proud, and would rather fall on her sword than admit that she was wrong about something. I'm wondering now if she is waiting for me to pursue her and fight for her love. I know that sounds crazy based on the fact that she had an affair, left me, and filed for divorce. However, in her mind, I had grown distant, uncaring, and did not show her the love and respect that I should have in the last year.

Am I completely nuts here? Is there any validity at all to my thinking process? Or is this just me being manipulated by her?