It's hard. You read things like "I miss you" and it sounds like "I'm ready to work this out". Of course, looking at it objectively from the outside, it looks different.
Yeah... the more objectively I look at it, the more it looks like a "Dear John" letter. I do feel like the air is cleared for both of us. I know I'll be a better person no matter what happens with the M. She has said repeatedly that she doesn't know where my head is at as I've been on such a rollercoaster of emotions... even before BD. Even wallowing about what I wanted going forward. I even said hastily that I'm going to pursue D. I've since settled way down. I think my response stated my preference is to remain married. We haven't discussed R or D in a few weeks. She's in no hurry to file, so, I'm going to let things stay in the holding pattern. LRT has been working and she has initiated a lot more texts lately. My responses have been light hearted and disinterested/aloof. Going to keep playing this game for a long time. That was my first attempt at validating... could have done better obviously.
Last edited by SadDood; 05/18/1504:41 PM.
M: 8 years, together 9 M: 41 W: 32 D 4, S 6 ILYBINILWY 2/10/15 2/14/15-2/22/15 Left home 4/5/15 Suspect A, Initiated Sandi's advice from WW thread 4/19/15 W asked for D
