I know the feeling, it just kills you inside that you desire your H so much and you get blown off time and time again. The rejection is a killer and you can't tell me that they don't know that you are wanting them. They just won't I still have not figured out if I was being punished for something or not. He just withheld himself from me and I do not consider that to be a marriage.
Your situation is so different from mine. You have very young precious children that you love deeply and are trying to make the M work. My H never had an affair. I doubt that has even crossed his mind, ever. Yet, so many things are the same, too. Your H does not cherish you as you deserve and need to be cherished. You cannot make him love you and I know that you ask if he is capable of truely giving himself to you. Only you can tell.
Keep your chin up. I know that this is a tough day for you.
