Darn it. I was on ambien and responded with the following:
"I appreciate the courage it took to send this text and admit this. I would like to apologize for not only my actions in the marriage and the many ways I tried to control you, belittle you and minimize your opinions. I acknowledge my financial infidelity and neglect/abandonment issues. I'm working on a lot, mostly the low hanging fruit and feeling much better about myself going forward. Either with or without you. I would like to remain married, but don't necessarily think this separation is a bad thing. I'm busy working on me and I hope you're busy working on you. I miss you too, but am finally getting along a lot better than I would have expected and have accepted that you have, in essence, fired me as your husband, and deservedly so. I hope you have a great week with the kids. They're really great, each of them in their own way. Will always be there for them."
Obviously, I said way too much... Really wish I had waited to take that ambien and to be more patient waiting for responses from the board. I did wait two hours before responding though, not that it matters.
Hope I didn't damage anything too much, but I was being honest and admitting to things I hadn't yet admitted to. To be fair, I really am getting along a lot better than I would have expected. Last few days have been quite good. Haven't initiated contact at all and W has sent me text videos of kids with funny comments. Have waited a few hours to respond with brief "Thank you for these, made my day!" type texts.
M: 8 years, together 9 M: 41 W: 32 D 4, S 6 ILYBINILWY 2/10/15 2/14/15-2/22/15 Left home 4/5/15 Suspect A, Initiated Sandi's advice from WW thread 4/19/15 W asked for D
