Thanks for the nice words Mighty and MrBond. While I don't consider myself to be in a MLC, I would say that maybe I'm having a "transition" or MLT. I know I have changed in this mess and like I said, some changes were good and some were not so good.

I do know this:

They say MLC is triggered by an "event" or "events." I know for a fact:

"Events" triggered my XW's MLC.
Her MLC or "event" triggered something in me.

You are right MrBond. I still do resent her. I need to let go of that, but it is so damn hard. And....I know in my heart that forgiveness is the only way, but I'm still far from that. To me, forgiveness comes off as saying "Hey, no biggie. It's ok."

My biggest fear right now is being alone. My boys will be marrying someone someday and have their own lives. Me? Where will I be?

Alone.

I know what I want but.....can't see it.

Tad

Last edited by tadpole1025; 05/18/15 02:45 PM.
Currently:
M 56 XW 57
Sons 38,33,31,29

The Sitch:
Married 26 years
EA w/ OM 9/10
Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary)
Sep 12/10
She wants D 1/11
W files 5/11
D final 10/11
XW marries OM 6/13