I said I was a pain in the a$$ and I'm going to be one right now...
yes my m is on track, yes my h loves me, yes he came home, yes ow is gone, yes there are a lot of positive things going on....
HOWEVER...
what I consider to be one of the roots of a lot of the problems in my m is still an issue...
h's lack of libido or fluctuating libido...
drives me nuts...
most often I don't say anything about it anymore...try to just look at all the good and do what I need to do...but when I do make mention of it and know it's heard but ignored what am I supposed to think, feel, do?
I am not fat,dirty,ugly,frumpy,boring,unfeminine ect...but h's lack of desire and/or rejection of me sexually makes me feel that I am and I hate it, it tears down little by little all the good going on and point to just settling.
you all know I'm direct so let's just say that LAST tuesday I said to h that my service engine soon light is on...he thought I meant the car so looked...I repeated no, MY service engine soon light is on...to wich he replied..oh I'll make a not of that...mind you it's now the following monday...I would not have made such a comment last tuesday if it hadn't already been a while (I know for sure nothing happend the sat night we went out...kinda sucks to get the same good night kiss from your h as he gives his friends wife)
just grumpy about it....
and becuase I'm grumpy let h know why..
his response...
I'll add it to my list of inadequacies. WTF?? I don't complain about him at all, infact I thank him for every little stinkin thing he does and compliment him as often as I can. what is this crap?
