The "talk" scheduled for Saturday..

[Tulo]

Dear Tulo, you are doing really well, in a such a short space of time.

Having no expectations is hard. I want him to contact me so at least I know he is thinking about me.

Thanks sweet Smothy! I try like mad, and some moments are better than others so I just hope they keep multiplying.

So, he did call.. Just an hour or so ago. He has suddenly liked several of my pics on FB the last few days after not having done that for ages. Don't know what that's all about but I'm trying not to analyse this.

So, I see his name and I get cold. Thinking a million thoughts before I pic up. Is he going to say he's changing his status on FB, is he asking for his key back.. Well, you get the picture..

He was very friendly and sounded just the same as always, I think I managed a bubbly happy tone through out and we talked about what we've been up to since we spoke on Thursday. All well and good. Then he said that he had just realised that on Saturday, when I have my race, it's the weekend of a big thing here in Sweden that is called 'School Soccer day' and that he hadn't realised this before. I had, but hadn't said to him that they collide. This is a big thing here, more or less all schools with kids between 7-13 are involved all over the country and he was involved last year as well. So he explained that he wouldn't be able to come but asked if I could turn on my Gps on my phone so that he could follow me on Glympse.

He said that he really wanted to know how I did and that he was very sorry that he wouldn't be able to make it. It felt sincere. I kept my end upbeat, saying that I thought it was sad that he wouldn't be able to make it but I understand why, and that I have a great day planned and even though I would have liked him to be there I'm not gonna let anything get in my way of having an awesome day. He said he was sure I was going to do great and if I slacked he would send me a text, saying to hurry up.

So, a bit of a set back, but I think I handled it great (if I do say so myself) and we spoke for half an hour with a good feeling between us and said we'd talk soon.

I think this no expectations is working.. I am a bit bummed, but not heartbroken. I'm gonna send him his Glympse and I'm going to do my very best at having a great day and he can stand among a million kids making hamburgers and just know that his missing out on a fun day!

Haha, look at me being all smug and all.. Guess it's because I ran up that massive hill today and it felt great!

I know the no closure is hard, but I think that we will grow out of this, and if IF they come back, they are going to have to step up to the plate if they are going to get us back!

Doesn't that sound like a plan, sweet Smothy?

Big hug!