This is tougher than I imagined..

[Cherry]

Okay, some of you may have seen my post on the newcomer board. In a nutshell- it came about my H had a physical affair.
Although we are now in piecing, and I am glad about that. While he was off stuck in his fog- I did a lot of working on me. And while we have been working hard at this. I feel he gets annoyed when I bring this up. If I have a question, although he will answer as he says I have every right to know- he says he just wants to forget this ever happened and that he has learnt his lesson.
The thing is I'm starting to find this really tough some days. I get images of him touching her or kissing her and it makes me physically sick. I don't know how I move along from this. But it is hard, and the way he carries on sometimes like it never happened makes me feel that I want to walk. And while I know inside that I do want to be with him- this hurts.
I had in my head when he kept saying how he wants to be the perfect husband to me- that he would be surprising me, or being sweet with me and trying his best. But it literally is just like its never happened..