You've taught me well old Obe One. I had to respond to a difficult email again this evening. And I keep in mind the tricks you taught me. Actually all the time, not just in emails.
Another big thing I keep in mind is that I am more scared of how I will deal with it rather than the actual "event". Then I keep in mind something a realisation that saved a few weeks back "She can't hurt me worse than what has already passed."
There have been no "improvements in my sitch.She just keeps pushing forwards to make this permanent. So "What I am scared of in this case, and all of them really, is that re-location is really, or at least symbolic of the point of no return for me. So I am scared that THEN it will be over. But reality is that it is over now. So what am I really worried about?
Forever is a mighty longtime. I am worried that I absolutely won't want to go back, there is too much damage to be undone. But the reatily is that I will always be willing try. I do love her, despite what she has done. That alone is not enough and I think I lack the sense of commitment to M that you have, but I am so committed to my girls that I would drop everything to try and give them what they deserve.
I am forever in your debt for the perspective you've given me and the techniques/approaches/interpretations you have taught me.
Hope your competition went well.
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
