The "talk" scheduled for Saturday..

[Smothy]

Dear Tulo, you are doing really well, in a such a short space of time.

I have/ still have the overwhelming desire to torture myself with the snooping on FB, looking at our joint accounts etc and it causes me loads of anxiety. It's best to FORCE yourself to stop if you can. I am nearly one week in (my longest period without looking so far).

I have had similar thoughts about H and OW. He keeps telling me they are just friends and I think if he just tells me, it is her he wants as he loves her, I may be able to detach easier. As it is, I feel there is no closure, the suddenness of it all.

I am beginning to accept where I am and this week has been filled with less anxiety. I am thinking about H far less. Accepting the situation and letting go is really the only way forward.

H said he will contact me this w/e and I know I am no where near detached as I am waitng for him to call and knowing I will be hurt if he doesn't. Having no expectations is hard. I want him to contact me so at least I know he is thinking about me.