Hi Twin, I think forgiveness is difficult and is a choice and a process, and we make progress and we backslide. As others have said, we all need to forgive in order to truly heal. Some of us may be lucky enough to forgive and heal with our S and others may do it alone. But either way, we need to find it within us in order to live a healthy and full life.
It sounds as though you are making progress, because you are thinking about it and recognising it is hard for you and taking advice. All of that is positive, and you won't get there over night. But, know that it is possible for all of us to reach a place of forgiveness, even for things that have hurt us a great deal.
Keep posting and take care (((Twin)))
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus