Make Love in the Middle of a Warzone

[Pyrite]

I should clarify - she didn't confirm that she didn't want me per se. My W was a neurotic mother which made the time we had "together" even further strained, or who we are kidding - completely absent.

At 7-8 months, W stopped going to sleep after babies last feed (breastfed) and stayed up for a bit. night after night I would wait in bed for her, but she never came . She always had intimacy issues but this time was even harder - its all in my thread - but I am happy to give you any detail. It happened a few times, but I distinctly remember the one time that broke my heart.

I called her to the bedroom and I said to her "It is hurtful that you dont come to bed with me but I think it is a bigger problem that you dont want to come to bed". She admitted that she would rather be on FB, organising photos or whatever. I know now how she felt, that I was just an extra source of pressure, demanding her time.

this is a shame because I was not demanding. I did ALL the cooking and cleaning and banking and everything. it wasn't like i was pressuring her into sex every night, we only ever had sex once a month or so. but this is how she felt. pressured. unfortunately because I wasn't reassured by her, i put more pressure on her for reassurance. and ultimately killed my M.